Going To Subic with Mahal

 May 5,

Umaga. Masaya ako kasi this is the day that I can take Mel back to Subic. I am going to show her the apartment that I am having build for her, for us. Hindi pa kasi nya nakikita iyon na tapos na yung 3 units. Last time she saw it bakanteng lote lang yun.

We initially planned that I would pick her up from San Juan. Iuuwe ko na kasi yung ibang gamit nya sa amin. We intend to live in Subic kapag katapos nya manganak. Sabi nya wag na daw kasi doble gastos lang kapag nagpunta pa ako dun. Magta taxi na lang daw sya. Iiwanan nya yung maleta nya na dadalahin sa Bicol. Ang balak namin ay bumalik ng Monday morning sa San Juan from Subic para kunin yun saka yung Allied ATM nya. We both agreed that I will just send her money while she is away. Ayaw ko din na magwork pa sya, first pregnancy nya and I dont want her to be stressed.

Pagdating ko sa bahay I got a text message from her asking that I call her. Syempre tawag naman ako. Oh men! Something happen. Umiiyak ang mahal ko. Then she told me the story. Its not worth mentioning because its something bad and it involves one of the people close to her.

She got a cab and took everything she needed to bring with her. Ayaw na daw nya kasi bumalik sa San Juan. I waited for her sa bahay and oh my gulay, ang dami nga nya dala! Gutom na daw sya. Kaya pinanhik ko na sa kuwarto yung mga gamit nya, umalis kami ng bahay papunta sa ABC Guadalupe, went to Jollibee, then ate.

After that we saw her OB for her check up. It was a bit scary. Kasi when she had her urine test sabi ng OB may blood daw na nakita sa ilalim ng microscope and she was asked if nagspotting sya. Mataas din yung blood sugar nya. 

Past 5pm na natapos lahat ng preparations namin. We took a cab going to Victory Liner, Cubao station. Napakabigat ng mga dala ko. Okay lang sana if I still frequent the gym kaso ayaw ni Mahal na nag gym ako. I use to lift 200lbs. of steel so carrying her 5 baggage wont really be a problem for me.

Pumilia pa kami sa terminal to get a ticket. May kahabaan din ang pila kaya medyo natagalan. Past 6pm na umalis yung bus sa terminal. It was a jolly ride. Syempre kasama ko si Mel. What more can I ask for? Though I dont say it that often but I am head over heels in love with her. May mga times na hindi sya obvious but still, hindi ko sya ipagpapalit sa kahet anu pa man. I have already come to embrace her flaws and short comings. What I love about her is the things that she has and not the ones that she lacks.

SCTEX yung route ng bus. Nakatulog kami pareho dahil sa pagod. When we woke up nasa DAU Terminal na kami sa Pampanga. Medyo maingay kasi umaakyat yung mga nagtitinda ng kung anu anu at bumababa yung ibang pasahero para umihi. Yung Iba naman mga bagong sakay pauwe ng either Bataan or Olongapo. Nagtampo sa akin si Mel kasi hindi ko sya nabilihan ng pagkain. Sobrang gutom na daw kasi sya. Hindi naman kasi sya nagsabi. Paalis na yung bus when she was asking me to get her something. I felt bad. Naawa ako sa kanya. Nakakainis naman ako. Hindi ko man lang nagawaan ng paraan.

Brownout sa Olongapo when we got there. I initially suggested that we eat muna sa Chowking. Gusto daw nya ng GOTO. Kaya ayun super hanap sa dilim. Nakakita kami thankfully sa may pilahan ng jeep. Tumawag ako sa bahay to tell them na parating na kami. After eating her goto, I bought 5 pieces of balot. Then sakay ng jeep. Tricycle from Saw Mill going to our place - 0158 San Isidro.

Panibagong Yugto

April 11 - Minabuti na namin ni Mel na magpatingin sa OB. Hindi ko na kasi kaya na nakikita sya na nahihirapan. Sabi nya, it feels like merong laman yung tyan nya. Oh well, there was only one way to find out.

POSITIVE! 7 Weeks and 1 Day according to the OB GYN who examined her.

We were both very very happy. I feel bad kasi ni hindi ko man lang nagawang magpropose sa kanya before impregnating her. One of the things we always discuss before is KASAL. Its not that I dont exactly believe in it its just that somehow, its not really on my list of priorities. I want to marry her. Sa lahat ng naging girlfriend ko sya lang at tanging sya lang yung tumagal ng ganito.

I am not the perfect/ideal boyfriend. Even for a husband, hindi ko din masabi if I am a good choice. I am flawed just like everyone else kaya lang what makes my case different is the fact that "I dont feel like I need anyone." I am self reliant, self sufficient, dependent, and more or less self absorbed. Those are a few things about me. Hayst.

I want to marry her. But then again we still cant. SUKOB xa if ever kasi her sister got married 1st quarter of this year. So isa na namang malaking ekis! I dont want people getting wrong ideas either. Hindi ko sya pakakasalan dahil sa buntis sya. In fact, hindi nya alam na I already have arrangements made for her for next year. I have a savings account dedicated for our wedding.

Now we are faced with her pregnancy. My priorities need to be re arranged for this matter. Actually it has already been re ordered. Nagsisisi ba ako? HINDI! I am happy with what happened and I want to take care of her and our baby.

Sacrifices. Kasama yan I have to give up a lot of things to make sure that this one works. I have asked Mel to quit work. Hindi ko kasi kaya na nahihirapan sya dahil sa mga pregnancy symptoms nya. I was very happy when she verbalized yung pag aalala nya when I told her she can quit work. She told me that she is worried about the finances, baka daw hindi kayanin. In a way part of her pride was also intact, baka daw isumbat ko sa kanya yung suporta. I was honestly happy to hear that from her. Atleast she still has pride, which for me is a good thing. Hindi kagaya nung iba na aasa lang. Hindi ganun si Mel.

Our first option was to actually live together. Nagpaalam naman na sya sa kanila and everything seems to be okay naman. Sa side ko naman, my parents are very excited. They actually wanted Mel to stay with them sa Subic but of course sa sitwasyon ni Mel it would be best that she stays in a place where she is comfortable at. On this note we agreed that she will be going to Bicol muna while I support her and the child.

Mas mainam na nasa poder sya ng family nya atleast mas komportable xa duon. We initially thought of getting a house for us kaya lang paano kapag sinumpung xa? Its best na meron xa kasama matanda na mag guide sa kanya. She also needs to have someone to talk to lalo kapag wala ako para nmn maging healthy yung nasa sinapupunan nya.

Today she processed her clearance sa Teletech.Two or threedays from now uuwe na sya ng Bicol. Sabi bawal daw sumakay ng plane yung buntis. We will take our chances.




 

God Gave Me You

I would like to believe at this point in time na IKAW na ang pinakamagandang nagyari sa buhay ko. From being my simple Coffee girl... Ikaw na ngayon ang MUNDO ko.

I LOVE YOU MEL! Thank you so much for all the hard work and effort in making this video.

Si Asul na Ngipin

So how should I begin the story of my life...

Isinilang ako sa isang maliit na barangay sa bayan ng Subic - San Isidro.Kapag narinig ng ilan ang salitang "Subic," kalimitang pumapasok sa isip nila ay ang SBMA (Subic Bay Metropolitan Authority) which is actually a part of Olongapo City, isa pang bayan sa probinsya ng Zambales. Nakakatuwa pero magkaibang lugar yun. Anyways, ang taon ay 1985, buwan - Enero, at ang petsa ay a dos.

Abril Labing Pito Dalawang Libo Labindalawa

Siguro ay dito ako magsisimula...

Matagal kong pinag-isipan ang wikang aking gagamitin sa aking mga akda. It took me a year  until I have finally decided to elect ENGALOG as my chosen medium for communicating my thoughts. Nuong ako ay nasa kolehiyo, I have encountered a lot of SMART and very INSIGHTFUL people. Obviously, I was inspired by them. Kahet ngayon sa work at sa pang arawa-araw na pakikisalamuha ko, napakadami kong mga nakikilala at nakaka-usap na para sa akin ay mga worth while na kadaupang dila.

Funny, last December nagpaka addict ako sa Starbucks para lang makuha yung "planner" nila at kahet paano ay makapag-start na sa pagsusulat ulet. So far okay naman. But I guess its best if merong critique. Basically yung ibang mga post ko dito is naisulat ko na nuon pa. Ngayon ko nga lang siya officially ipo-post.

Englog

Englog , sometimes Enggalog , is an informal sociolect in the Philippines. The term is a portmanteau of the words ‘ English’ and ‘ Tagalog’. It is formed by infusing Tagalog words and structures into English, an example of which is called Konyo English . Somewhat akin to this is Taglish, which in turn is Tagalog infused with English words and structures.

Well its not really going to be all ENGALOG. I would also either write in pure English or Tagalog depending on the topic that I will be talking about. Isa sa mga sinasaalang-alang ko kasi is yung mga magbabasa. This is intended for the Filipino folks. In a way, sana kapulutan sya ng inspirasyon o dili naman kaya ay magsilbing gabay sa mga desisyon na pwede nating gawin sa pang araw araw na buhay. Pwede din naman na for entertainment purposes only.

Language is very DYNAMIC! It is ever evolving. Working in the call center has exposed  me to a lot of variety and reality. I have seen the Filipino people adapt to the ever changing phases of communication. I came across a lot of barriers. May mga nakasama ako na nagpipilit, nagmamagaling, AT MGA TUNAY AT LIKAS NA MAHUSAY. I want to also share this with everyone in every way I can.

I graduated with a degree in BS Mathematics. Nagtataka siguro kayo bakit ako nagsusulat? Well hilig ko na kasi siya since bata pa ako. I will tell you more about that sa mga susunod na panulat ko. 

For now, this is it. I am creating this blog site officially today and opening it to everyone. I will be sharing with everyone my ideas and insights, my dreams and my hopes, my success and my failures - so in short isusulat ko kung anu ang laman ng aking puso, isipan, at kaluluwa sa blog na ito.

I welcome feedback - both positive and negative. Pwede ninyo ihayag ang inyong pagsang ayon at pagtaliwas sa kahet anung ilalathala ko.

THE WORLD IS EVERYONE'S STAGE! LIVE IT THE WAY YOU WANT TO LIVE IT. CAST AWAY YOUR NIGHTMARES AND CONQUER YOUR FEARS. DRAW A MARK AND LEAVE IT THERE FOR OTHERS TO SEE. LIVE EACH DAY AS IF THOUGH IT WAS YOUR LAST. LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST AND LIVE IT WITHOUT A SINGLE REGRET! - rendy eligio

Introduksyon

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... Seriously flawed, but nevertheless talented. He was and still is. He sees the world in shades of blue and gray, a melancholic skittering dangerously on the edge of his sanity. Struggle fiercely, passionately to find that something, that something unknown even to himself. Confused? Unpredictable? A certifiable loony? Misunderstood? Perhaps then again perhaps not. He once tried to seek understanding from the world foolishly. Hurt, he resolves to harden his heart to receive none from man. He likes to cry but often found dried eyes, cold heart. He yearns to cry a river and move along. His will wanes like an offbeat metronome. Reads a lot. Books, people, situations, etc. Perhaps too much. Complicates and philosophize everything ridiculously. Can you be encouraged and discouraged at the same time? Well he can. This is his story, story of the rage within him. How will it end?



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